“Commitment” is about a broken commitment leading to a self-commitment. I had two fairly detailed, though incomplete, journals along with some actual memory to work from. Even so, much of what I wrote is about Bob: I called Bob, Bob called me. Bob won't answer his phone, how I feel about Bob not answering his phone. I was understandably Bob-obsessed, as he was my husband and everything had been so unexpected to me, even though it was obvious in hindsight that he had been maneuvering for months to get me out of his life.
I wish I could present a Bob-less story, but part of the reality of bipolar disorder is the price it exacts on relationships. Bob was tired of having an unstable, unreliable wife and wanted to get on with his life, especially after he hit it off with conventionally charming Options. He also stated unequivocally to me that he didn't want to put in the work required to continue a relationship with someone with a serious mental illness. He said he wanted to remain friends, but I wasn't in a place where I could casually remain friends with someone who wanted to divorce me.
